Lisa Cybaniak Gustafsson

Name: Lisa Cybaniak Gustafsson

Age: 47

Where you are from: Canada

Where you live: England

This is who I am in the world: After surviving a decade of child abuse, from psychological and physical to sexual, my teen years found me safe from my abuser but in danger from myself. Because of the words and actions of another person, I truly believed I was stupid, ugly, worthless and useless, nobody would ever love me, and I would never be anything to this world. I honestly believed that someone else needed to come along and show me my value. Of course, that was never going to happen – not because I was not valuable, but because I did not believe I had any value. Therefore, any time someone was kind to me, I assumed it must be because they wanted something from me or were laughing at me behind my back. I simply could not accept love or kindness from another person. In fact, most times I could not even see that it was there. I spent a long time looking for someone else to save me from my torture, and since I always came up short, I was in constant pain. I wanted the pain to end so badly that for a few years I thought the only way to make that happen was to end my life. Luckily, somewhere deep in the back of my being, I knew that was not the answer – that I needed to transcend this. I just did not know how.

Once I realised that this was going to be my life, for the rest of my life, if I did not do something about it, I went on a healing mission. I was not trying to heal from my child abuse – I was still in denial that that was even impacting my life. I was trying to find the meaning of it all. Why would I be made to suffer in such a way? What was so wrong with me that this is what I deserved?

What I learned was more than I could ever imagine back then. I began to explore the concept of spirituality – life after death, reincarnation, the purpose we set for ourselves in each life. And that changed everything! The idea that I was in control of choosing when and where I reincarnated, and who would be my parents, really began to replace that sense of lack of control over my life with control – something I felt I never had. But when I realised that I chose all the major players in my life to help me learn my lessons, that is when true empowerment set in. It is also when my entire perspective on my life shifted. Up until this point, I had lived my whole life believing my lesson was that I was worthless. Now, I understood that I would never incarnate into a life to learn a lesson like that – nobody would! So, if that was not my lesson, what was?

This is the moment that changed everything because this is when I realised my lesson was to find my worth; to love and accept myself. And, because I found my way to this understanding through the concept of reincarnation and soul purpose, I already was shifting into a deep respect for myself. Instead of feeling like a helpless victim to my abuser and my life, I now had clarity and power. And with me back in the driver’s seat of my own life, I was in control. I could choose anything I wanted, and I wanted to love and accept myself.

I am now the Goddess of Ancestral Wisdom and Universal Connection. I am the Divine Feminine balanced with the Divine Masculine, here to experience life in human form so I can understand myself more fully. My purpose is to help others use their experiences as catalysts in their evolution, while doing the same to allow for my ascension. I am a catalyst for change, growth and acceptance of oneself, just as you are in this moment. And I am dedicated to helping others find their own way.

This is the story that I want rewritten for women: The Divine Feminine lives in you. You ARE Divine. We are one. Anything and everything you could ever want, you already have. In fact, it IS YOU. It is time to connect with your true self; your Higher Self once more and do what you have come here to do. For too long you have walked in the shadows; you have thought and planned too small as you had forgotten who you are. You, sister, were meant for greatness. You, sister, ARE greatness.

This is the story that I next want to write for myself: As I continue to evolve, I help millions of other women do the same. I follow my path, surrendering to the flow of life – to the very Universe that we all are. I listen to my intuition and the signs that are all around me, guiding me. I am clearing my karmic debt from this life and others and releasing myself from vows and oaths that no longer serve me. I understand that I do not have to destroy my ego to grow. Rather, the ego society tells me to reject is just my unhealed ego. Just as her name suggests, she can be healed, and I celebrate the steps I take in that endeavour. And all along this path I take, I help others in finding and creating theirs.